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HEARD AT MEETING MARCH, 2016

HEARD AT MEETING MARCH, 2016

I would think it was my lucky night and my wife would go into
the bathroom and turn on the shower and when she came out I would be passed out.anon

This chapter (to the wives) is about a lack of intimacy.anon

There are two ways of spreading light:
Be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.anon
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11 years ago I met a timeshare official and I went to
the Hawaii Correctional Facility for several years.anon
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I just bought a brand new car off the showroom floor.
Before before I used to use a screwdriver.anon
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When I was new and people would say
“I’m getting my feelings back”,
I thought to myself, “screw you”.anon
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My sponsor said, “were you drunk when you were driving your daughter”, and said “yes”.
He said “there’s an existential thought”.anon
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He said there are no steps that says figure it out.anon
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I lied to him, I said yes, again, and
he took me you to my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting.anon
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I left that meeting with something I’ve never had
before and that was hope.anon
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I said a prayer to the God I knew that
never wanted anything to do with me,
turned out that was my third step.anon
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He said “are you going to stay”,
and I said “yes”, and he said”go
over there and wash those cups.anon
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He said, “sobriety has to be no matter what”.anon
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When I wake up in the morning I’m in
conscious contact with a fool.anon
( reported many times here, just a reminder.) anon
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My sponsor told me I wasn’t in
Alcoholics Anonymous to prove I was charming,
it was to show that I was a fool.anon
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I’ve come to believe that I’m a real a
very shallow person.anon
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I made money to provide for my kids,
and I thought I was king s***.anon
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The Big Book is like a Harry Potter book:
words and sentences just “show up.”
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This disease is still out there, waiting patiently.
Be mindful. Always.
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I thought everyone drank like I did,
and if you didn’t, I didn’t want anything to do with you.anon
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I peed in my pants just to keep drinking.anon
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I figured if I got away from the university I would be okay.anon
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I moved to Hawaii and isolated myself.anon
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When I drink I didn’t feel that fear anymore.anon
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I felt really strange walking away from the fridge
without drinking the beer inside of it.anon
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I had never thought about not drinking,
I was all about control.anon
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They were all going around the room
saying they were alcoholics,
when it got to me, I had no idea what to say.anon
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I didn’t know if the crazy was going to come back.
I have to remember that I’m powerless over alcohol.anon
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I have to remember that a little hot
air dissipates those pink clouds.anon
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And this lady said to me,
“chances are that if you are here, there’s a reason”.anon
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My disease is like the Terminator,
it doesn’t eat, sleep, or take a break.anon
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I was told that if I had a hula hoop around me,
the only thing I’m in charge of is what’s in the hoop.anon
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The thought suddenly came into my mind,
“who would know?”
the second thought was “are you crazy?”anon
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I didn’t like whiskey, but….anon
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I felt like I was the ooops child and
later on I was the ooooops child.anon
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I liked taking things that didn’t belong to me,
I walk into people’s homes and help myself to whatever.anon
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I came to the meetings and thought you were all crazy,
laughing, shaking hands, etc cetera.anon
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My outlet was road rage.anon
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Seeing is better than looking.anon
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I was jealous of everyone who had to get a paper signed,
I wanted to bring my own.anon
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I started drinking at 15 and I had to gone to party.
From the beginning there was no stop button.anon
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I was always concerned about
what other people thought of me.anon
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I always lived where I was not accountable for my actions.anon
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I ask myself how did I get to this point again,
I always overshot the mark.anon
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I didn’t understand myself I just
thought “that’s who I am”.anon
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If I demand rigorous honesty from you,
how dare I demand less of myself.anon
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At two months sober, I looked down at the
end of the table and there was God’s will for me.anon
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He was doing life on the installment plan,
30 days here, 60 days there, six months over there.anon
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I’m a front-line drinker, I put everybody in danger.anon
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I came here so It would look good on my probation report.anon
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My brother looked at me and said,
“there’s no light in your eyes”.anon
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You folks taught me how to laugh, cry,
be grateful, and to have my feelings.anon
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I feel like I have so much more growing
to do and I look forward to it.anon
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Most people in this room can probably tell my story.
That’s okay, my favorite subject is me.anon
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I said I would never drink like my father.
At 13 I had my first drink.anon
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I didn’t want to come to a club that
nobody wants to join.anon
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He said he was going to take the kids
and divorce me, and I said go ahead,
they look like you, I can have more.anon
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The judge said “you’re cute what are you in here for”?
And I said “what are you in for, sodomy?”anon
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I sponsor several prostitutes and they would say,
“I’m so embarrassed”, and I said
“you’re embarrassed,I gave it away”. anon
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I moved one of the worst cities in the world,
don’t worry it was that way before I got there.anon
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They say the disease of alcoholism is
a disease of loneliness and I have it.anon
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I would have to have a certain amount
of alcohol in my system at all times or
I would have what I call them into delirium tremens.anon
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I would go home close the door and get
that alcohol level back up and usually I passed out.anon
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I taught school at her church and oh those poor girls.anon
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I went to the old Cathedral and all of
a sudden all those emotions overwhelm me.
The priest prayed for me.
The next day I went into treatment.anon
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My mom discovered all those empty bottles,
the lie was in my mouth, but I didn’t say it.anon
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I got a sponsor and she said to me,
“do you want to live or do you want to die”?anon
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I went back to the Cathedral for
my third step and my sponsor said,
“all you have to do is be still”.anon
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He said to me you know the program
you just have to work it.anon
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I had to give up in order to not give up.anon
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I have a higher power and it’s not me.anon
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The best thing I can do today is to stay sober.anon
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My sponsor said to me,” how free do you want to be?”anon
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I drank because of fear, and it worked.anon
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My parents never gave me direction,
but you guys did.anon
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I have just taken a walk through the
dark ally of my mind and got my butt to a meeting.anon
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There can be no outcome without me.anon
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I was good at getting people to feel sorry for
me so I could get something out of them.anon
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I said come on God get your s*** together,
I had no idea where that came from.anon
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My attitude was that if you snooze you lose,
and if he didn’t stay up, there was someone on the side.anon
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The one thing I’m proud of is that I didn’t
cheat on my present husband.anon
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My bottom came to America with me.anon
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They took me to the Makahiki Lanai mtg.
I realized then and there I wasn’t crazy.anon
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Back in my home country my closest meeting
is 45 minutes from my home, but I would go
45 minutes for a drink.anon
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To me God is the cat’s me out.anon
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I was upset and my sponsor said “how
much is this going to affect you in
a month/ a year, whatever…..?”anon
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I can tell you my story all day long,
but if you want to really know me,
come over and hang out.
See how I live.
Then you will know my story and truth.
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The longest sobriety in the world is just 24 hours.anon
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I had a $20,000 big book and it didn’t take,
I came here and it worked.anon
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I found that if I can’t communicate in my home,
then how can I expect to do it in the world.anon
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Today I’m more lucky not drinking.anon
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Three out of four of my grandparents were
alcoholics and died from this disease.anon
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I never drank till I got home,
it separated me from the ones that Carried bottles.anon
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Three out of four of my siblings where are alcoholics,
and my sister, who did cocaine, tried drinking instead .
She’s not doing so well.anon
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I would go to McDonald’s, pour vodka into my orange juice,
and many times passed out there.anon
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I started to believe some of the stuff
they were telling me.anon
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I was conceived on a gravestone at st. John’s Cemetery.anon
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My husband would drop me off at meetings.
I would sit outside until the meeting was almost over,
and then walk out with people when he came to pick me up.anon
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There is freedom waiting for you on the breezes of the sky,
And you ask “What if I fail?”
Oh, but my darling,
What if you fly?anon
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This is a program you have to practice, not work.anon
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I’m slow, very slow, d -, 7 -, but it always works for me.anon
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Spiritual rigor mortis is when you are sitting
there waiting for the spiritual program to rub off.anon
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Try to keep your triangle equilateral,
overdoing any one thing, say service,
is not good.anon
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It’s a lot easier to be around people who don’t want to drink.anon
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When I was drinking I had to keep my eye out for the Blues,
they were always waiting for me somewhere I felt.anon
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There is no pill to make it go away,
you just have to walk through it.anon
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You’re either a pickle or you’re not.anon
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Life is always difficult when you’re trying to make it easy.anon
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My relapse truly starts with the way I think.anon
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When you share that God is now,
I can identify with that.anon
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As a child I felt less then,
I didn’t have the words,
but you know what I mean.anon
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We didn’t steal money from my parents,
we used our babysitting money to get drinks.anon
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I’m super lucky to have gotten here,
I was raised in the Catholic church and
this is worked miracles for me.anon
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I did other things but I’ll stay with his singleness of purpose,
alcohol first and last.anon
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I was drinking in the age of big hair,
big boobs, big everything.anon
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I was able to find friends who made my
drinking look normal.anon
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I had to break things off, I chased him
off because I had great coping skills, alcohol. anon
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My twins turn 12 months old before I
thanked God they had all their fingers and toes.anon
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I looked OK on the outside but inside
it was a shitstorm.anon
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I get up and put my glasses on so I can
see what the world is really all about.anon
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Pain exceeded the release.anon
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We’re all sober today and to me that’s
proof there is a God.anon
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Those buggers, they can do it I can’t,
it’s not fair, that was my attitude.anon
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My probation officer said I needed to go
home and be a mother to my five children.anon
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I really had no idea what a family was all about.anon
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My sponsor said, it wasn’t his time to get sober,
it’s your turn.anon
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Buddhism talks about it, the monkey mind,
always chattering.anon
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Finally my will gave out and I ended up in treatment.anon
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Not only could I not stop, I didn’t want to stop.anon
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I came to Hawaii and got in a relationship,
and he was a lead weight, an excuse to
continue what I was doing.anon
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I usually find that my Solutions are insane,
and that’s where the third step comes in. anon
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You talk about half measures, I used countermeasures. anon
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You define to see the truth about my alcoholism
then I better hope there’s something out there
more powerful than me.anon
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We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence,
then, is not an act, but a habit.anon
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I was amazed, how did you know I hated myself? anon
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I was told to follow directions, I gave directions.anon
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My parents had nothing to do with it, that’s what I heard between my ears.anon
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If a person is crying all the time, it’s really hard to help them.anon
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I had to go through what I had to go through to get to where I am today.anon
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I’m in the little by slow group.anon
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I imbibed lot of liquid depressants to hide my feelings.anon
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Today my teenage daughter is a source of my greatest frustration and my greatest joy.anon
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I was crippled socially without the lubricant of alcohol.anon
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I have the disease of more and this life has given me the chance for more of the good life.anon
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There’s no way I can get drunk if I don’t take that first drink.anon
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Love one another. Life is short.anon
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I lost it all, millions of dollars and was going to end it all, and a voice said,
“you don’t have a right to kill yourself.”anon
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I’m five foot seven and I weighed
205 pounds because of my drinking.anon
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For the 10 years I was out there,
I was in four rehabs and several jails.
Once I got here the Solitude was fantastic.anon
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On the back of the coin that says
“to thine own self be true” my motto was
“I can do it myself as long as you don’t know.” anon
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The Hallmark of our diseases that everyone
in the world is responsible for me , except me.anon
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I had a part-time membership in the fellowship for a while.anon
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It’s really important to know who I am, Confucius says
“to thine own self be true.” anon
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I’m going to ride that wave and
avoid the Collision of instincts.anon
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Mostly what I like to do is scratch and sniff.
I know who I am today,
the Basic Instincts offered me that awareness.anon
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My attitude was, “don’t I get bonus points for showing up?” Anon
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I have to remember that the steps worked
for millions of Alcoholics before I got here.anon
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I came here by accident, a blessing in disguise.anon
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I found that, I too was a part-time member of the fellowship.anon
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I had this great Freedom Everyday by planning to die every day.anon
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I got for sponsors in the first four months and
they all fired me for stalking them.anon
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The good thing about Alcoholics Anonymous
meetings is that there’s so much stuff it goes
on it keeps me distracted from my own head.anon
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Moms was religious, dad an atheist.anon
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My sister got a sex change and I didn’t
know what the hell was going on.anon
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I was in a play, got drunk and never showed up.anon
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Someone said to me, ” why don’t you try being yourself for a change?
Quit trying to be someone else or what you think others think of you.”anon
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I was living in Hollywood and got in a car full
of transvestites and went straight to Manhattan with them.anon
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I’ve learned to live from the consequences of my actions.anon
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Our disease does not persecute based on the religion we choose,
the gender we are, or the color of our skin.
Our recovery can be as equal opportunity if we allow it. anon
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When I was new I would go to 5 meeting a day.anon
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I would go to downtown lunch and then to aftercare.anon
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I had a bad habit of picking things apart.anon
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My sponsor said there’s a difference between
childlike and childish. If you stick around you’ll
know the difference.anon
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I was homeless for so many years that
the day the same colored slippers is a big deal.anon
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When I came to AA I thought everyone was weird,
you know what, I was right.anon
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I feel that everything I say doesn’t matter,
but it’s only day 13.anon
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How would make a list of 990 things
to do for the day and if I miss one I
would be upset, miserable.anon
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Today I have learned to relax and just
let it go for the day.anon
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It seems impossible that a guy like me
is here in Hawaii on vacation.
I did Vodka by the gallon and today I am
respected in my community.anon
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Today I choose not to play in the Lion’s Den.anon
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What business have I in a bar if I don’t drink.anon
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If I’m fearful about going to a place where they drink,
then I’m not spiritually fit.anon
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It doesn’t make any difference because
I am the resentment that is in my mind.anon
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There are people out there who don’t get it,
I have to be in here, on the front lines.anon
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I came to Alcoholics Anonymous in 1988
and immediately got sober eight years later.anon
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Some people would tell me that I did belong in the program,
that I was a good example of a bad example.anon
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I know that if I don’t talk about my pain
I’m going to transmit it.anon
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When I walked into the program I was
interested in booze,girls and how to be cool.anon
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When I walk into the room I know it’s going to be okay,
but when I go somewhere else,
there’s always that little bit of doubt.anon
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After several years I still didn’t know there
were traditions we followed in order to keep
the doors open for everyone that had a problem with alcohol.anon
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Even though I have stuff going on in my life,
I have never had it better.anon
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We came from Dark Places and can go to high places.anon
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I was an only child and my mother abused me a lot.anon
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They catch the monkey by putting a banana in a coconut
and the monkey puts his hand in the coconut and can’t get
it out cuz he won’t let go of the banana.
Sort of like me, I had to let go of the banana.anon
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My sponsor used to say a bottle in front
of me is like a frontal lobotomy.anon
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When I came in here this guy in the back
of the room with me said he had three years,
I knew he was lying, today he has 44 years.anon
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My mother died ten years ago and I was no
longer the person that she thought I was,
my dad and and sister died
A little later and it forced me to come
in to Alcoholics Anonymous.anon
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I wasn’t quite ready for bed one night,
so I decided to give the dog a haircut.
My mom got really blown out.anon
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Are you a talk about quitting drinking and
then I would find a beer in my hand.anon
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I tried to prove myself different,
and I did,right into a mental ward.anon
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When I came into the fellowship I was
still taking non-prescribed prescription drugs.anon
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It’s too bad that the Big Book doesn’t
come in the form of a comic book,
it would have made it a lot more interesting for me.anon
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My taxes are due, but I’m not going to lie,
but I’m going to maximize the gray area…
Is what my tax man says to do.anon
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My karma ran over my Dogma.anon
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On the way to here an old truck was in
front of me and on the back it said
,” don’t laugh, your daughter might be in the back.”anon
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Thinking is justifiable, thinking good thoughts a prerequisite.anon
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My sponsor said, yesterday is always yesterday,
tomorrow is always tomorrow,
and today is always today…anon
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Thank God, two guys found out that if we hung out together it would be okay.anon
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Went into Miniature Margarita shop with
my wife and kids and they had everything
for the f*****-up.anon
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Today is a very tragic day for me,
today is the last day of my 40s.anon
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I’m a Methodist Minister, and while trying to get
my reservations figured out on the telephone
I hollered what the f***. anon
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My mother actually said to me,
“never steal anything small if you’re going to steal.”anon
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When I went out, all the friends my kids
had made in the rooms, were suddenly
out of their lives. It took me 18 years to
get back.anon
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I was a b**** and I knew it.anon
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I avoided the circle jerk that
everyone does at the end of meetings.anon
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I took a lot of psychedelics, when I was drinking,
and I only had around 50 bad trips.anon
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What was my drug of choice,
whatever is offered to me,
I had no choice.anon
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Here in the meetings it doesn’t matter
if you’re from Yale or from jail.anon
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Sincerely,
Ron Richey
808-734-5732
439 Nahua Street #2
Honolulu, Hi 96815
iamronrichey@gmail.com
www.melloron.com

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