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HEARD AT MEETINGS APRIL,2016

HEARD AT MEETINGS APRIL,2016

The first drink I ever took and the last drink I ever took, 

both tasted like more.anon 
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Drinking was never a social thing for me, 
it was the effect, and the effect only.anon 
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I found it when I come here, 
we’re not all crazy on the same day.anon
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I wanted Alcoholics Anonymous to do for 
me what alcohol did for me. 
I wanted it that same affect. anon
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 From that first bottle of mouthwash I picked up 
until after that last beer, all I wanted was peace of mind.anon
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 I had 25 years in the program and thought that I shouldn’t share. 
I went out. I just didn’t know how to share my feelings.anon
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 Those instincts on my Character defects.anon
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 Trust me, when I don’t open My Big Mouth, 
I’m being respectful.anon
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 I’m here because of the s*** that I manufacture.anon
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So at this meeting people would come
 in talking about their being there sober. 
They seem to be very happy. 
I so much wanted to be happy. Anon 
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Then there was this elderly couple who
 told me I can pray anytime, anywhere, 
on my knees, off my knees just talk to 
God that’s all I had to do.anon 
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Mental illness is something that you have no control of,
 but I want but honesty is a choice.anon 
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When I’m not rigorously honest it chips away at my soul.anon
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I was 5 days without a drink and I tried
 to sleep and my body just kept saying
 “get up, get up you need a drink.”anon
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 I was a nice Christian girl so I forgave
everybody, yeah, right. anon
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 Basically I just go get into the ocean
 and let my higher carry me,I just float.anon 
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The difference between a problem Drinker
 and an alcoholic is that when the problem 
Drinker puts down the alcohol, no problem, 
but when a alcoholic put down the drink, 
that is when the problems begin.anon 
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I was too wrapped up in myself,
 it was always just about me. anon
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 I would get a year, then something would happen,
 and I will go out again. And I would get another, go out,
then another, and another year, and my wife finally
 said she didn’t trust me.anon
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 I didn’t want to stop, and then when 
I wanted to stop, I couldn’t. anon 
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How’s it going to treatment, and then, as soon as I got out,
 I would go right back to drinking.anon
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 My parents showed me tough love and 
put me out of their home.
Best thing that they ever did for me anon 
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I didn’t say God when I asked for help,
 I just asked for help. Then, in treatment, AA came in.anon
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I got six f’s And one B in my class, I have since got my GED.anon
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I had my first drink at 12 and for the first time
I feel absolutely free.anon
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I never knew that black out drinking
was black out drinking.anon
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My dad was an atheist and he said that
anyone that believed in God or stupid.
I didn’t want to be stupid , I knew I was stupid ,
so I tried to cover it up.anon
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In Catholic Church I knew I wasn’t good
enough to go up front and get the cracker.anon
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I quit my job the next year before they took
the narcotics inventory.anon
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I felt like my skin was inside out and
someone was rubbing it.anon
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Hell, I was addicted to tanning salons and I was orange.
I went to two a day.anon
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I told my sponsor probably, that I had 300
Pages of my fourth step to do with her.
She was shocked as hell and told me to go
back and do the steps out of the big book.anon
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I’m eighty-two years old and my train of
thought just left without me.anon
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My mom called and wished me happy detox today.anon
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When I got sober the only thing I could
do for myself was to take a bath.anon
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How do you not drink successfully?
I did it, I am good, I suffered, damn it, I did it.anon
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It took a lot of time for me to realize that
after some time I had indeed, quit drinking.anon
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During my first 5 years I got a lot of little jobs
and after 5 years, yes, I got a really good job,
I work there 25 years, and just recently retired.anon
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Eventually God will help you have everything
you want out of life.anon
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We know of only one word for love but actually
there are over thirty words in the Greek for love.anon
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My mom said I’m the kind of child that only a mother could love.
Tonight I’m taking her out to dinner.anon
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I thought I was Jack the Ripper and it turned
out that I was only Dennis the Menace. Anon
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Today my mother has Alzheimer’s, which means
I have to work a better program.anon
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I was in a victim, turns out they were reacting
to my bad actions.anon
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Let go of what you cannot control.
And yes, we all know there will be claw marks all
over whatever you are letting go of!.anon
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I’m in treatment and I’m amazed that they trust me
enough to give me a bus ticket and go to meetings.anon
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I thought that once I did the steps the seven
deadlies would disappear, no such luck.anon
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I have found that coming to AA early, and working the steps,
I have learned a little bit about myself and who I am.anon
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Wherever we go there we are.anon
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Thank God I learn from my mistakes and I don’t
conveniently forget the past.anon
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It’s all about cleaning from the inside out.anon
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Today I have a design to accept you in the world about me.anon
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Even though I put down the alcohol,
I still have to contend with the ism.anon
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The bottom line is am I willing to talk about what
is really going on.anon
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I went to the firing range today and I didn’t
should my commander.anon
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We all know what should taste like,
that’s why we are here.anon
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The alcohol becomes your lover,
friend and hunting partner.anon
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Forgive as freely as you dislike. Try it for a week.
See how it works for you.anon
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In my last two years of drinking I really spiraled out of control.anon 
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There was a guy in the bar and he was drinking
 a soda and I said “why aren’t you drinking”
 and he said “it’s elective.”anon
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 I got so bad that my moral code is completely gone.anon 
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This guy said that if I kept coming back it would get better. 
I attached myself to his star.anon 
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I will go to any lengths to get out of myself.anon 
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When my sponsor suggest something I always 
do it and I always get a shift in consciousness.anon
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 It takes you to the behavior of the phenomena of the Mind. Huh?anon 
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I like the organized chaos of Alcoholics Anonymous.anon
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 I had to drink to live.anon I had my own spot in an alley. 
There were s*** stains on the ground where I slept, mine.anon
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 I need to be reminded that I’m crazy too.anon
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 Let’s see, I woke up in the dry bed for starters.anon 
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I discovered that my higher power wants my participation.
 It’s a symbiotic relationship.anon
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 At the beginning, parking spots was really good
 way for me to get into talking to God.anon
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 My sponsor said that I was going to stay hungry 
unless I went in the kitchen and made myself a sandwich. 
Prayer is not getting God to do things for you that you
 can do for yourself.anon
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 Step 2 is not having to take the whole pill at once.anon
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 I don’t know about the 12 Steps I know ,about the 13th Step a lot. 
But I just have a few days.anon
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 If your head is unmanageable that’s probably means
 that you are too.anon
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 I come here because I want what everyone else has.anon
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I threw my fishing pole into the water,
got on my knees and said God help me
I don’t know what to do.anon
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I told him I’m not a Buddhist,
but that I practice Buddhist culture.anon
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I didn’t want to get married,
but I wanted a child, my daughter.anon
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I looked at the 12 steps on the wall and said
you’ve got to be kidding me you want me to learn 12 things.
I couldn’t do one.anon
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There was this commercial about the Treatment
Center Raleigh Hills and we would all say if you
got a problem call Raleigh Hills, no I never did.anon
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I was throwing newspapers and one morning and
I passed out in the gutter.
It was very smooth and comfortable.anon
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I said I was going to the bar and have one drink,
but once I walk down that big hill there is no coming back.anon
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I went to a wine tasting and I was sitting
there snorting coke and drinking vodka out of a bottle.
I came too much later.anon
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I couldn’t sleep, how would have three drinks
in a bar go to another bar 3 drinks go to
another bar 3 drinks and start all over again.anon
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I know who I woke up with this morning, my two dogs.anon
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I almost didn’t get sober when I saw the font on those little signs.
I knew I would never be able to write like that.anon
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I’m always in transition, I’m always growing,
learning new things.anon
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Life is learning to take the chicken s***
and turn it into a chicken salad.anon
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I grew up in the Catholic church and would go to confession but nothing would change.anon My relationship with God is that everything is going to work out.anon
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I don’t know if I went to my mother’s funeral.anon
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I was that person who would think after a fashion,
that I could drink.anon
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I am always amazed that there is a part of each and everyone of us in the big book.anon
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I found that our commonality was that we were all unable to stop drinking.anon
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I knew one guy who was schizophrenic and he lived alone and would hide his booze so that the other guys couldn’t find it.anon
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Someone asked me if I was still working the steps,
I said “no, I’m living them.”anon
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No one can push my buttons like my mother,
she installed them.anon
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The first it was fun, then it was fun with problems, then it was just problems.anon
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Actually I have a very healthy liver, it came from a cadaver.anon
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When I came here I was a raving bitch.
I was like that for years. Today I’m grateful alcoholic.anon
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Sometimes I write songs in my head.
I’m sort of like computerized Within Myself.anon
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He said to put my junk on the table and if
I don’t I want what you guys have you told
me I could always take my junk and leave.anon
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I would rather have people call me on my s@#%
then have people s#$% on me.anon
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When I got here I had a 3-step program,
I’m here, I’m sober, and I’m going to save the world.anon
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As time went on I have renewed old relationships
that I knew I could never be rekindled.anon
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Today I get to take my family to the mainland where
my parents moved to get away from me,
with my wife and twin daughters.anon
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Step 11 give me the framework to communicate
with that higher power you folks talk about.anon
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When I came here I had everything I
had dreamed of in the material world but I was empty.anon
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I was a self-made misfit.
Today I can say I am as God created me.anon
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Let’s see, I don’t take people past my off ramp anymore.anon
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God needed to take me out because I needed
to be reconstructed. Which meant I had to tea
r down that old self esteem.anon
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I hang out with a lot of professional people and some
of them are future members of our fellowship.anon
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It blew my mind in Step 1 that I was fundamentally
different than other people.anon
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Today I continue to take steps 3 and 11 every day.anon
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I wondered, “what is a unified theory of me?
He said “do the steps and you will see.”anon
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I did my 5th step and he said
“congratulations you’re a garden-variety drunk.”anon
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I made a living every Merchant of misery.anon
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I can’t let another person’s constraints dictate my program.anon
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This is a free cerebral activity program.anon
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This program doesn’t have to be a funeral dirge.anon
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First things first means I can’t drink.anon
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I can have not just a happy hour I can have a happy life.anon
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It’s not that I can’t do things, it’s that I won’t do things.anon
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I remember the old VFW Hall and there was a bar
in the back and a meeting in the front.
One step in the bar and one step in Alcoholics Anonymous.anon
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I said my higher power was electricity because
it was high voltage.anon
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My mom said dad was the devil and an alcoholic,
and I wanted to be like the devil.anon
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I was drunk with a bottle of vodka in my back pocket
in the middle of the street directing traffic.
They threw me in the car Kekala Ward.anon
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One night a cop stopped me and asked me why
I was running and I said I’m running from the
chickens and it was back to the kick Kekala Ward.anon
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I was that person who would think, after a fashion,
that I could drink.anon
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I’m always amazed that there is a part of the Big Book
in each and every one of us.anon
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I found it that one thing we had in common
was that was that we couldn’t stop drinking.anon
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I was a gifted child, at 3 I started playing the
piano comma I never felt like I fit in.anon
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I started drinking when I was 12 and I started
feeling like I felt a part of. I fit in.anon
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I got into my first relationship at 13 and that
was my way of fitting in.anon
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My mother was an alcoholic and she was able
to teach me a way for me to fit in and manipulate my world.anon
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I learned how to stuff my feelings as a child and
when my mother decided to get sober and 2001
I got sober in 2002.anon
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I left Hawaii after I had gone out and move to Seattle.anon
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I wasn’t a single mom very long because shortly
after I got to see her I was in another relationship.anon
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I know I’m white, but in Seattle they are white white.anon
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I Diveed deeper and deeper into my disease,
I knew there was a better way, but I just wasn’t ready yet.anon
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When the police brought me back from Seattle on
the plane, I was in cuffs, and the mother’s grabbed
their children and pulled them away from me.anon
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While in jail I came to a place of gratitude.anon
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If I knew better I would do better.anon
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It was scary being without alcohol ,
but today I have emotional sobriety.anon
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To go through what we go through to get booze
shows that we are pretty proud.anon
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Strangely enough, I’m a contractor,
and I don’t like people to depend upon me.anon
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I’m riddled with fear, anxiety and all those defects,
but I try to stay right sized.anon
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Today I have more money in my pocket then my age.anon
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I always go to page 420, the next indicated step.anon
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I was a 30 year old black out drunk.anon
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I remember this one guy, I was a crab catcher
and he was a crab Snatcher.anon
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It really is as simple as doing the next right thing.anon
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I’m in treatment and it is fixing my thinking.anon
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If I’m unhappy and I talk to somebody,
that’s when the magic happens.anon
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My Heroes were the bartenders, waiters and suffers.
I got what I wanted.anon
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Why are we the lucky ones?
Sometimes I have survivor’s guilt.anon
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When i’m projecting into the future,
I have to reel myself back in.anon
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At the end I was drinking 3 fifths of whiskey a day.anon
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I found that there was no secret out of my dilemma.anon
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I can’t remember what I did last week which tells me
I’m living one day at a time.
(Hell, I thought I was getting dementia.) anon
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Not feeling bored is getting into the service.anon
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I went to treatment and I was there for 5 years. anon
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While in there I worked with all kinds of people,
alkies AND druggies and started reading the big
book with other alcoholics.anon
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I was baptized as a Catholic yet my family went
to a Pentecostal everyone bounced over the floor.
Thank God in Alcoholics Anonymous it’s God as
you understand Him.anon
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Wow, you were a treatment so long I was
wondering if you got a doctorate.anon
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I really didn’t understand what the steps had to
do with all the assholes in my life.anon
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When something is going on in my life I call up
someone and tell them about it and it cuts the load and half.anon
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It’s not about being right, I just wanted you to be wrong.
It’s the old survival tactics.anon
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When old deffects show up today I have a chance,
how do I want to conduct myself? anon
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In the fellowship I learned how to nurture that little girl in me.anon
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I was homeless, in and out of jail,
and I owe my life to this Fellowship.anon
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I have found that my living circumstances did not
define success.anon
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I’m considered a marginally educated a*****e.anon
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This Fellowship is taught me how to grow up and
how to show up to grow up.anon
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If you try to help yourself,
God or his Collective consciousness of
Alcoholics Anonymous will help.anon
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In my fourth step I discovered I was looking for a
pattern in my thinking.anon
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When I came in I thought I could read your mind.
I knew what you were thinking about me,
I know what you felt about me.anon
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I don’t like me and if I could get hammered without
the negative effects of homelessness, no food,
no friends and no bad effects I would still drink.anon
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I had to give to you so you would be my friend.anon
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I hung with the bullies so I wouldn’t be bullied myself.anon
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I wore second-hand clothes and when I got my
paper route that I could buy the clothes I wanted.
It was very important that I look good.anon
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I honestly wanted to try to blend in, that’s all, just blend in.anon
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As a child I would always have anxiety attacks before
a baseball game, I would throw up and then I would be okay.anon
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I drove drunk all the time and I know you guys did too.anon
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Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.anon
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When I was a kid growing up stressed out whenever they get together.
It glamorized drinking for me.anon
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my mother never got a chance to get sober,
she tried, mainly food Geographics,
but she never made it.anon
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Alcoholism and and both sides of my family I’m
pretty convinced that I was predisposed to drink.anon
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I was so far from spirituality when I made it to
the rooms I was a true basket case.anon
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I went to meetings at work with a water bottle full of vodka.anon
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I can’t emphasize too much how important it is to have a sponsor.
Someone to talk to.anon
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I didn’t have a nodding idea of what humble was .anon
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I had  to have alcohol in my system in order to
function.anon
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Alcoholics Anonymous taught me  how say yes
and Al-Anon taught me how to say no.anon
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For the body without spirit is dead.anon
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I don’t see the Miracles in myself but I recognize them in others.anon
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I’m not terminally unique but I do have an
interesting story of my mind.anon
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My mother and father would dress up and have
these wonderful parties in the house and afterwards
there would be explosions and I was fearful my dad
would leave me. I was 5 years old.anon
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I got a Fulbright scholarship and I stopped drinking
because my church and asked me to.anon
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We went on a date with two bottles of wine later Bingo,
we were married.anon
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As I was divorcing number one I married number two.anon
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I move at the speed of pain.anon
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Being around people I love and who love me is all
I have to do.Then there’s a reset button and I’m okay.anon
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But I always went to meetings, no matter what city I was in,
before I went out and got a drink.anon
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Complacency equals vacancy, I was back in the streets again.anon
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My emotions are like the Four Seasons in one day,
I’m emotional, suicidal, homicidal, and outrageous.anon
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They told me that if I came to Alcoholics Anonymous
I wouldn’t have to get to go to jail, that was a lie.anon
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I drank because I had a lot of feelings, many of them,
but that first one was always that feeling of inadequacy.anon
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I sat on my pity pot so long I had a ring around
my butt when I got to Alcoholics Anonymous.anon
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Well I was a good one also.anon
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We are all born with anger so we can look at
ourselves and better ourselves.
We are born with lust so that we can procreate,
Pride, so we can feel good about ourselves
and defects so we can find ourselves.anon
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My defects stand in the way of my usefulness.anon
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It’s no Merry Go Round, it’s a scary go around
and it’s hard to get off of it.anon
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Someone stole my identity and
I found out it was alcohol.anon
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I was always thinking that everyone
else had the answers.anon
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I’ve been a member of the half-measures group
for the last 20 years. It’s saved my liver.anon
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This is the greatest show on Earth,
there’s no glass ceiling.anon
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I walked out of that bar and a fresh Breeze
hit me in the face and for the first time
in my life I was free.anon
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Be Kind. It is not as difficult as we make it.anon
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I understood that, it’s hard to take,
but I understood it.
She got loaded and lost the ability to choose.anon
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We all got here with a spiritual malady and
like when I have a virus in my mind
I have the steps to clean out my unspiritual cache.anon
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I spent a lifetime trying to be someone
other than who I am.anon
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